Another birthday, another Christmas spent without Ryan. Nothing but memories and things that trigger sad emotions.
A few months ago, reporter Mylee Walker of the Daily Egyptian reached out to me about Ryan's case. I agreed to do an interview with her and after a few hurdles, she was finally able to get it published this week. Attaching the link here for those who are interested in reading it. Hope it works!
Year 18 and still no one arrested despite me continuing to try to keep Ryan's case open year after year after year while battling major health issues and injuries. Sometimes it feels so overwhelming.
We had Casey's pizza for lunch today in memory of Ryan since he worked there and made pizzas when Hannah was a baby. Sadly, I don't know where she is right now. We then went to the cemetery to visit him. Ryan not being here leaves a big hole in our hearts that no amount of time can ever heal.
Today is Ryan's 40th birthday. He should have been here with us to celebrate, but of course that choice was taken away from him. His brothers and I got together to share memories and I went to his grave to talk to him, but of course he couldn't answer. I hope he knows that he is always in our thoughts.
Dug into photos and found this one from when he became a teenager. I so miss those days and still cannot look at photos of him without crying.
We love you, Ryan. Happy Birthday in Heaven.
The worst day of our lives was 17 years ago today when Ryan was violently taken from us. The situation with likely suspects is complicated and I cannot discuss it publicly, but I suspect that we will never see justice for Ryan, nor will we ever get closure. I pray that I am wrong.
His daughter Hannah is now in college and we are so PROUD of her! Ryan loved her so much. I wish he could have been around to watch her grow up.
Ryan would have been 39 today if his life hadn't been stolen. Visited him yesterday at the cemetery and right on cue, "Baker's Street" came on the radio.
A couple of weeks ago the flowers I had on his headstone disappeared. I don't know why someone would do that. It was so pretty and was the first flower arrangement I was able to make since my major surgery and illnesses last year. 😪 There are other flowers there now.
Meanwhile, not a word from CPD about his case so I'm assuming they haven't looked at his case since I prompted them to last year. It's looking more and more like there will be no justice in what time I have left on earth.
All I have are memories.... This is from Halloween 1988 in Arizona. His cousin Jenny on the left is gone now too. 😠We miss them both terribly.
