Christmas 2023

Had a pleasant visit with my sons Randy and Robert on Christmas Eve.  On Christmas Day I held Ryan's photo to my chest and cried.  

He should have been here with us.  All we have left is memories.  

And still no justice.  

Christmas 1994

Today is Ryan's 40th birthday. He should have been here with us to celebrate, but of course that choice was taken away from him. His brothers and I got together to share memories and I went to his grave to talk to him, but of course he couldn't answer.  I hope he knows that he is always in our thoughts.  

Dug into photos and found this one from when he became a teenager.  I so miss those days and still cannot look at photos of him without crying.  

We love you, Ryan.  Happy Birthday in Heaven.

The worst day of our lives was 17 years ago today when Ryan was violently taken from us.  The situation with likely suspects is complicated and I cannot discuss it publicly, but I suspect that we will never see justice for Ryan, nor will we ever get closure. I pray that I am wrong.

His daughter Hannah is now in college and we are so PROUD of her!  Ryan loved her so much. I wish he could have been around to watch her grow up.  

Mother's Day is bittersweet.  You dearly love the sons and daughters you have yet there is also an ache and emptiness for the one you lost. It's been almost 17 years since Ryan was violently taken from us and not a single day goes by that he is isn't in my thoughts.  😢