It's difficult to believe that 8 years have passed and so little has changed as far as Ryan's murder case is concerned.  So many of us have hoped and prayed that the evidence needed to resolve the case would magically appear, but so far we have been woefully disappointed.  

I continue to search for answers and information on my own, hoping that I will find some little clue or bit of information that will break the case. I'm not giving up.  I love and will always fight for my sons, especially the one I have lost.  

The love and support so many have given over the past 8 years is one of the things that has kept me going.  Spending time with Ryan's daughter Hannah and her little brother Wyatt lifts my spirits as well.  Hannah is sweet, considerate, and creative and I am very proud of her.  My sons Randy and Robert are my rocks, even though I know that both of them face many challenges of their own.  

Some handle pain and grief by holding it in, and I will admit that when I was young I mostly dealt with it that way.  Now I find that talking about it and even speaking out about it helps me to cope with the pain and depression.  I try not to burden others with it very often, but every now and then the pain surfaces and the tears flow....

Please keep us in your prayers.