I struggle with knowing what to say today.  11 years of pain for all of us. 11 years of visiting Ryan's grave and still no one has been arrested for his murder. 11 years of Hannah not knowing her father.  11 years of his attackers enjoying their lives after robbing Ryan of his. 11 years of feeling like I have been fighting for Ryan with little or no help from anyone.  

I miss Ryan's smile.  I miss his humor.  I miss his voice.  I still can't look at his photos without crying.  I wouldn't wish this pain on anyone.  

I am thankful for those who have come forward with information over the years about his murder.  So far sadly we haven't obtained what we need to get convictions but if the lowlifes who killed Ryan or anyone protecting them think for a second that I am going to give up and go away, they have another thing coming.  

I will always fight for my son.  

I'm not going away until they are put away.